Worrying About the What Ifs
I have a tendency to worry about the what ifs. What if what I plan doesn’t go exactly how I plan it? What will happen in my future if my dreams come true? Asking myself these questions has caused me to worry and be anxious about things.
Usually even if my plans don’t go exactly like I planned, the situation still works out in my favor.
For example, I had multiple dreams that I had become an RN. During my L&D rotation, I ended up making a 74.4. I was anxious and worried about my future. I worried about how I was going to get into another nursing school. I worried about how my dreams were going to come true. The dreams would only work out if I graduated from nursing school in 2010. I still worried even though I have had multiple other dreams come true word for word. After 3 weeks, the teacher ended up giving every one the 6 points for the take home quizzes and I ended up passing the class. For 3 weeks, I had worried myself for nothing. I knew I was going to be an RN but looking at the evidence in front of me, it was still hard to have faith in my dreams and God. In 2010, I graduated and became an RN.
Like my life coach tells me, “I don’t need to worry about the how.”
I don’t need to worry about how things are going to work out. I already know that I am guided and my history has proven that I’m always taken care of, even when I make a “mistake”.
Recently, I became worried about a situation that hasn’t even happened yet. I’m going on a cruise by myself this June. I know that I’m meant to be on this cruise. I’ve had multiple dreams about it. I was nervous about the crowds, who I was going to meet, and if it was going to work out like I wanted it to. In talking with my life coach, she talked me through my worst case scenarios. I told her my fears and why I was feeling that way. I began to realize that my fears weren’t based in reality. I knew that God wouldn’t just lead me to this and then leave me to come up with the plan on my own.
I was worrying about the how. Its not my job to worry about how things are going to work out. Its my job to show up and do what I need to do. If I had not applied to nursing school, then I would not have become an RN. I would not be a travel nurse, if I had not become an RN.
It is very easy to get myself worked up and worried about the what ifs in life. I’m learning to just stop and pause. I’m learning to look at my past and realize that things usually work out. They may not work out like I want them to, but they do work out.
I could have saved myself from so much worrying and anxiety, if I would just trust that God is going to help me and take care of me.
How much time and worry could you save if you just trusted and had faith?