I told one person that I had to go in baby steps. I used to be scared to go anywhere on my own. I started small by going to the movie theater by myself. I went in the middle of the day when I knew there was not going to be a lot of people there. Now I actually like going to the movie theater in the middle of the day by myself. Its like I have the movie theater to myself. That led to being a solo travel nurse. I was freaking out inside before doing those things but I wanted to do them anyway. I wanted to be a travel nurse ever since I wanted to be a nurse. I love to travel. If I was scared to do things on my own, how was I going to become a travel nurse.
Like my life coach told me, courage isn’t the absence of fear. Courage is having fear but still doing what you want.
I had to learn to acknowledge the fear. Before I did my very first open mic poetry reading, I was so nervous. I had invited some friends. I was contemplating on not showing up because I was so scared but I also wanted to do it. So before I got on stage, I had a talk with my guardian angels and told them to help me. The fear was still there but it had lessened. After doing my performance, I felt great. I had faced my fear of public speaking.
Before I went skydiving recently, I was so nervous. I was actually looking to do indoor skydiving because I had seen one of my Facebook friends do it. The skydiving place was just 15 minutes from where I was staying. I just decided to do the real skydiving. The night before I went, I couldn’t sleep. I was scared and nervous. I literally talked to my fear inside my head. I asked what I was scared of and why did I feel that way. After I did that my fear lessened. I was able to go to sleep and rest. The next day I went skydiving. Before they let me go skydiving, they wanted me to watch a safety video. My feared came back. By that time, I had already paid so I was going to go. There was no refund at that point. I had another talk with my fear. Stepping out of the plane at 13,000 feet was scary. I didn’t want to back out. So I closed my eyes and let the instructor lead me. It lasted probably 10 minutes. I realized that my fear of the event was gone. I had a lot of fun flying through the air.
I haven’t regretted doing something that I wanted to do but was scared to do at first. I now use that fear to my advantage.
I was freaking out inside but I did it anyways.