I was explaining to her that I was nervous and proud of my parents. My parents had attended a march for civil rights. I was proud that they went but there was another part of me that was scared for them. We are still in a global pandemic and my mother has respiratory issues. I was nervous that she would catch the corona virus. If she had told me before she attended the march, I may have tried to talk her out of going.
My life coach told me that my trauma working as a nurse was leaking into my relationships.
I thought about that. As a nurse, I do experience trauma on the job. There are a lot of emotional trauma and even some physical trauma. I had seen some nurses physically hurt by patients and family members. It is emotionally hard to see another nurse get hurt at work and then you still have to finish your shift. It is emotionally hard on nurses to see patients die with no family or friends around them right now. Nurses can talk about it with other nurses but most of the time we can’t share it with anyone else except for a therapist. Most hospitals have a counselor but most nurses don’t use them. I know that I’ve never used the counselor at work.
I’ve been a nurse for 15 years and I have seen some things. I bet most nurses could say that as well.
Nurses have to wear a lot of different hats. We have to be not only a nurse but a therapist, wound care nurse, patient advocate, and those are just a few of the hats we have to wear at work. We can’t share most of the things that we go through because of the laws. That is why it’s so hard to tell someone who isn’t in the medical field exactly what you do.
I also realized that it makes my life easier to live when my parents are in good health. My life would change drastically if they got sick, especially if they were sick with the corona virus. There is no cure or vaccine right now for the corona virus, I would just have to watch them suffer if they got sick. I don’t know if they would be the lucky ones to have no symptoms with the virus. That is why I was so nervous when they went to that march. I do understand that we are also in another pandemic with racism. I just don’t want anything bad to happen to my parents. I just have to believe that as the Universe always takes care of me, then the Universe will also always take care of my parents.
I would say that most nurses have some emotional trauma from work. It would do us all good if we got a therapist to talk about what we go through. It may not be enough just talking with the other nurses. That is one of the reasons that I trained to be a life coach to help nurses.